A month ago my cousin A. die. And not long after, I bid farewell to two people I am fond of – one gone to work on a cruise ship, another gone back to she homeland, Russia.
Wish I was one of those folks whose sadness does make them flow creatively. Not me...the creative part o’ me does slow down.
Now, trying to move, to write again, I feel like iguana when people approach, the ‘guana does freeze, crouch down, low-low-low...
Sunday, June 14, 2009
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my condolences
and i know what you mean sort of. only thing i can do when i sad is write depressing poetry
Sorry for your loss!
my condolences to u and urs GG.
Oh GG, I am so sorry for the loss of your cousin. My deepest sympathy to you and your family.
It's not sadness for me.. it's when something means something to me. Then the real me comes out..
Shorty..Get Low...man, dis place hat lika rass yah!...it mek alahwe wan fee zzzzzzzzz....
Like all your friends I am sorry for your loss and your sadness and I hope that slowly, blogging will bring you some solace. It's good to have you around again - you are much missed. As one of my friends says who has just suffered a grievous loss, she's taking one hour at a time. Stay strong.oxo
(((HUG))) for your losses.
I've been crouching low myself lately. Just health and stress problems, but whatever the case words have dried up and GONE. I'm cheating by posting loads of photos on my blog.
I dreamt my favourite cousin came to stay with us last night. Last time I saw him was at my wedding, when we were both in Africa. 7 years ago. Now he's in Australia and I'm in Scotland so... when will I see him again? :-( Now I feel crouch-and-low myself. Can I join you under a rock somewhere?
Michelle, that dried up and gone feeling [with the words] is frustrating isn't it? I feel as though I'm going nuts. But I took up my notebook [journal if you want to be fancy], and wrote and wrote yesterday. Do you have a private notebook? Start scribbling in it.
I know a good rock in Oz, maybe we can go there and look for the thorny lizard...how I LIKE that critter!
Pat, thank you, I think the words are coming back and I'm gearing to go again. Lots of funny stuff to tell too. I like your new photo, you can still be a model, Dove might be interested. Sorry, still can't get the ad-gal out of me :-)
KFM, what's happening with the guanas in Wattie's yard?
Stolid, even when something has meaning, if I have a block...the words stay bunged up.
How are you managing with all these ^%$#@! powercuts, by the way?
CG, I feel such sorrow for my auntie, but she copes so well, it is amazing. Her husband too, they are so strong.
Everyday almost I call to see how they're doing.
Bakannal, I'm still trying to understand what's going on in my head, and I think that's what stopped me from writing.
John G, would you believe, I'd started thinking, people should not get to know others, should not get close to others, because when they go, we're sad.
Man Jdid, you're lucky, depressing poetry is good, even if you're writing for yourself, at least there's not darn writer's block!
man, dem guanas deh alova...yuh drive dung ah road an whooops...haul yuh brakes dem....guana ah crass...Wats place me nah know wha gwan deh...me ain bin rund deh fee wan while...
GG
Sorry about your loss. Hope you feeling much better. Be strong:)))
Had two lumps removed from my breast last week. I am hiding under lots of rocks until I get the results.
All you women out there go and get a mamogram ASAP!!!!
Remember I never say goodbye, I say see you later. It is the memories with friends and family that counts.
GG
Sorry last comment was from Exotic Gyal
my condolences gg... we'll wait for you to get your groove back... :-)
Thanks Will, it's coming back...I hope to blog again today, yayyy...
Exotic Gyal, I figured it was you, Anonymous. I'm going to pray and pray for you. You're going to be okay, you will be, you will.
I ain't told my mamma as yet, she's gone into town to deal with the tax office. She says I can't 'manage them people'.
But you know she will send you all her prayers and best healing vibes.
KFM, they eat all of Wattie's bora. I bet they strip the garden before he goes back.
Ptttzzzz, endangered species, my foot!
Sometimes you feel like the last turkey in the shop doncha. Three cheers for the blogosphere - there's always someone there for you, whatever time of night you drop in. Chin up old girl. All things must pass.
en-who? nah man, dem deh..living de good life....hanin by de pool an suh...ask Wats dem name..yuh go dead wid laff...
"Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted." Mat 5:4
So, go on and mourn and reflect on the things that you remember about those you've lost. God bless and be with you my sister. I hope to hear from you soon. Peace~
GG
Good news:))
BENIGN, BENIGN, BENIGN!!!
Do I sound happy:))))???
Exotic Gyal
Exotic Gyal, I KNEW IT. I had this strong, strong STRONG feeling! My mother said to tell you [before we got the good news] that her prayers are with you.
Now you can go back to catching racoons hahahaha wish you can see my big grin.
Stephen, thank you! I've been doing a lot of reflecting. Now I can read your poems happily - even though they're the blues, and I must get me to a post office [I have gift to send :-)
Daphne, gosh yes, double cheers for the blogosphere! And to think, it's so underrated by the media...here at least.
People power can be so positive. Stories want to jump out again, thanks to you all.
Uh...KFM, them guanas got names...?!?
I'm sorry for your loss GG, and I'm with you. I tend to deal with grief by climbing inside my own shell and thinking about nothing.
May I join all your friends in offering condolences.
The empty feeling will give way to happy memories in time.
Meanwhile, take a break until you feel ready to blog again.
Bisous
Sorry to hear your news. Now I'm old I seem to have lost everyone I ever loved and most of my friends.
In my younger days I always seemed to be going to weddings, but now I seem to go to more funerals.
Shit happens. We learn to cope with when we get old.
C'est la vie!
Keith, living in Guyana, in such a community-based setting, we go to funerals as well as weddings from a young age. I think, no matter what age, some part of us has to grieve. Go on, shoot me, but I think men pretend to not grieve.
Sab, this time, it was the creative part of me that went underground...for a while I was sad...then I couldn't write...I'm ready to write again, yay.
Kat, I think too much, that's my problem, and everything has to be written down in my notebook or I find it hard to be creative again.
GG
My nanee used to cook a mean guana curry with coconut milk and lots a pepper.:))) She used to catch them herself with a noose made from rice stalks.
Exotic Gyal
so sorry, gg.
i've been crouched down a lot lately, too. mostly trying to avoid whatever bad thing is going to happen next. hope you're back to blogging more soon!
only a matter of time before yuh back straighten back out.
yes..you aint know by now Wattie duz name everyting? all cousin Lis dally dem had muslim bai names...dem animals in he yaaad had muslim names too...he dry...all dem kyat an dawd to...wha ent gah name duz ketch name fram he
KFM, I remember, but when I asked him about the names of the BUDGIES, he said they didn't have names. Eh? That is just so not true!
HBynoe, hello, how you doing? Your comment made me giggle...yes, is true, me back is straightening out, I am writing, trying to finish a piece for the next blog post.
Cadiz, I know exactly how you feel, it's happened so often recently, I feel jinxed. I've been trying to make good things happen, sometimes it takes longer than we expect. Grumble in a private journal, it helps, it really does. I'm going to try sending you some positive vibes.
Exotic Gyal, you need to head on down to Florida to my uncle's garden, you can do a roaring business with exotic foods - though you can't say it's iguana, it's endangered...or so some folks say.
is troo, dem two aint gat name...Nisa nevah name dem to...but me know dem guanas dem gat names...wen he tell me..me two eye dem open big an watch he an i say EH?
Exotic Gyal: so happy for you:)
I am so sorry you have lost your cousin, followed by the departure of two friends.
Wishing the sunshine returns to your heart real soon.
I love your website, seriously. I read it daily via my Greader
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Thank you, Abida, thank you. Here, I hope you enjoy many bangle-moments.
Olivia, that is a lovely wish, thank you :-)
Pat, she is such a lovely gal, I'm still celebrating for her.
P.S. I got your email...I will reply soon. Big smiles and hugs.
KFM, I must ask him..........
ahhhh, GG. (((HUGS))) so sorry to hear your news. I go back and forth with loss: sometimes dry as a bone and othertimes gushing with words/anger /sorrow. but even then - they aren't worth much until I've had time to mellow them.
glad to see more posts coming, sounds like you're making peace with it. Never easy.
Hayden, you nailed it. That's exactly how it is, dry as a bone sometimes, or gushing with words of sorrow / anger. Thank you.
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